Fucked bareback with my gay cousin who came to see me horny

My gay cousin has always told me that I am too, and I come to deny it. But one day he came to visit me, we were in shorts and I started to notice that looking at the package I was wearing, and that gay anal sex made me very morbid. So, just to try, I proposed one of those fucked bareback where the guy, he, gets on top and the confused hetero fucks him until he realizes he likes it.